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Today is just not my day.
I woke up in a rush again because i had pressed the snooze button and woke up an hour later than i was supposed to do. What a bummer can.
Woke up one hour later still not so bad, but situation got worse when i did not like what i had planned to wear at first and i had to get back in the house to change again. Then i realised i was really late for our group's discussion (approximately half an hour late), so i took taxi again. ARGH!
Then come presentation time. I was somehow excited for the psychology topic we were doing because it was emotions such an interesting topic. weeks ago, i was doing so much reading up and research on it yet the presentation was postponed and my brain cells seemed to have died out, and the amount of other work we have to do just prevents me from concentrating on psychology and everything is so last minute now, even as i did the slide editing. brain seems to be not working today, lack of sleep?!
so today's presentation, i am so frustrated because i could have done so so much better. COULD HAVE DONE SO MUCH BETTER, BOOO :'/ although some said it was good, but i think i am too.. perfectionist on this? well, considering the amount of work put in, it'd be a disappointment that i kinda blanked out just now!
Then i rushed for work. It's been ages ago since i went to the office, say 3 months ago? Anyway, ust came on time for briefing and we have to do an on-site survey. Definitely not my cup of tea. It is not as easy as the non on-site one. Would not want to come if not for aunt Nancy. But at least i got one succesful interview- a 1st year poly guy who was reluctant at first to to do the interview :D
and now i'm in an uber dilemma.
WITH SUCH RESPONSIBILITY GIVEN, HOW TO QUIT?!
and urgh, my uneven stack & messy clothes makes me more frustrated. How i wish i can abracadabra it to be neater and do away with untidyness. and why do bathroom/washrooms get dirty so easily, wonder?!?! i hate the sight of a dirty toilet and i always make sure it is clean and now it's back to a dirty toiley. i'm too tired to bother!
guess it's all about the emotions eh?
but then on the other hand, looking on the brighter side, ONE PRESENTATION DOWN, ONE MORE TO GO!
ONLY ONE MORE, ONE MORE!
ONLY ONE MORE, ONE MORE!
i'm thinking of quitting.
forget responsibilities, i want to priorities what's important.
to quit, or not to?
everybody & things has changed anyway.
forget responsibilities, i want to priorities what's important.
to quit, or not to?
everybody & things has changed anyway.
What a friday.
ROAR!
i was late again. Yes, again.
Gotta kick this bad habit!
You know, last night was the earliest time i had slept in how many weeks. I slept at 11pm! and my usual bedtime is atrociously late, like in the wee hours of the morning. Bad, i know =/
BUT! i slept early last night, and i still could wake up an hour late! Impossible! I panicked after i saw the time. Then i wonder to myself. Late already. and i had indecisive thoughts whether to rush and take a cab or just give the tutorial a miss (after all, the next lecture is only at 2pm!). So i just took my own time, no rush in going to school. and i arrive in school, 30mins late. Haha, i told Lynna i won't be coming yet i came for tutorial and we both gave contradicting statements to the tutor why i was late and why i was "absent". heehee!
and i am so pissed/disappointed!
WHY ONLY GET AN AVERAGE B!
i put in a lot of effort for that module!
ROAR!
went to junction 8 with the girls, Lynna & Thiviya couldn't make it. We wanted to watch Obsession at first, but we ate at KFC instead, where i spilt coke onto my dress. Luckily it is black, otherwise i'd be too embarassed to go to school!
then we saw bishan's library!
So nice inside!
i wanna go there and spent a whole day there, one day!
oh did i ever mention that Yanti has the nicest dress?
it has the stripey and lovely colours!
it has the stripey and lovely colours!
up, up to the lift.
stoopid hair.
i was always wondering how the watermelon with milk from the fruits stall would taste like. i finally get a taste of it today.
AND I LOVE IT!
i keep thinking of its taste in my tastebuds!
can't wait to buy it again!
muahahaha!
picture credits:Aeen
Labels: friends, pictures, places
Our tribute day.
We all wore b l a c k.
cool eh?
i rushed out of the house and took a cab to school only to have myself sitting outside the lab for 2 hours doing nothing productive while the others were having their assessments. I could have saved the money rather than took a cab!
had lunch with the girls at our usual favourite spot!
we jumped, jumped and JUMPED!
so cool, we were all wearing black :D
Wednesday
i came a couple of minutes late for lecture. Phew, i gotta stop this bad habit of lateness. I actually woke up at 8.30am yet i only managed to get out of the house at 10am!
today's wednesday was longer than the usual wednesdays. we start at 11am, end the last lecture at 1pm and our test starts at 5.30pm!
we went to a couple of places to study. HARHAR, study?
anyway, we went to our favourite hang out, but it was occupied! so we went to level one which was an unusual to have our packed lunched there. We passed by the stadium and Thiviya and i thinks it's great idea to study there, with the sun and the wind.
second stop, we went to the library's discussion rooms. Anira & gang had booked a room, so it was perfect to study but we ended up talking- about Michael Jackson. Haha, how productive!
and now notice the very prominent finger sticking out behind us.
Labels: friends, pictures, school
Dear Suane,
i'm so disappinted with you.
What happened to you? You have lost yourself, immersing yourself into the worldly. Where are you, who was once so focused and cherished the people around you? You are now taking things so much for granted. and being complacent and not caring about anything. What happened to doing things you used to love and do? Why have you become so anti-social, pushing the people away who are close to you?
You talk about your new found passion and your no regrets for the new path you've chosen. Then why are you being so complacent and not doing your best for your it? Discipline is what you need, Suane. and not excuses to yourself, you'll only have yourself to blame. Don't be a disappointment to yourself.
and i'm sorry, for abusing your health. I stay up late, sleeping just a few hours a day with no compensation for the few hours i sleep. ignoring the fact that you'll have rashes all over when your immunity system is down. Sometimes, you feel your liver hurts, but you still ignore your health. and stop taking panadol with ice lemon tea when the headaches come!
oh suane, you have to learn to stop and feel your emotions. sometimes you try to ignore and forget the not-so-nice feelings you have. you run away from your problems without facing it. like what your friends say, don't keep everything to yourself.
Oh i'm sorry suane for being such an undisciplined person. I am sorry i have been abusing my health, and been a disappointment to you. Do something about yourself and stop living like a walking zombie.
have a change.
yours truly,
Suane.
Labels: letter to myself
Sometimes i forget.
Sometimes i forget my emotions.
Sometimes i forget the people in my life.
Sometimes i forget there must be self discipline.
Sometimes i forget.
Sometimes i forget my emotions.
Sometimes i forget the people in my life.
Sometimes i forget there must be self discipline.
Sometimes i forget.
Labels: rants
i've had enough of people using my stuff and not returning it.
or worse, taking them away.
i've had enough.
and enough of trusting people so easily.